~chewtile

Has things ever changed in my life over the past few weeks. I have done a lot of searching and decision making. I broke up with david after 5 years. We've been through a lot and I still consider him a good friend, but I can't lie to myself about it anymore. I'm not in love and I couldn't spend my life with him. It's been tough more so because he isn't ready to move on, and I am. I also met a new guy. He seems to have his life pretty well together and he is really sweet. Oh and he is a country boy haha. I'v been really getting to country lately. I use to just like Tim McGraw and now I like several others. It's all I'v been listening to. I just feel bad about it all.. I've already found someone who can be there for me through all of this and I know David doesn't have that. I just can't stay anymore because I feel sorry for him.

It all happened at my 20th birthday.. kind of sucked. All the plans we had.. didn't happen and I missed him. Actually I was a bit sad about it all because I had plans for 2 friends and Chad to go with me on my birthday but I was ditched by the 2 friends. He was there for me and we made other plans so I suppose it worked out alright. I mean, it's not really a big deal anyways.

I haven't been online much anymore either. I just haven't cared, with so much going on I feel that this isn't important at all. I guess I'm growing up a bit and I'm not really interested in being online like I use to. Course I never had much to do either haha.

Tomorrow I'm going with Chad to the mall. Haha were going to do those photobooth things. I'm excited because we haven't had many chances to really go somewhere together with our work scheduals. He is usually working 1-9 so I see him either early or late haha. I don't know, I don't want to rush into anything but I'm falling fast, which scares me. He got me a rose and a card yesturday. Surprised me with it when he picked me up, it was so sweet and unexpected!

David is coming over soon to pick up his stuff he has over at my house.. I just hope it goes smoothly. I know it will be tough enough to see him again. I'd rather avoid it..